Summer cleaning

I cleaned on a steamy summer day

And found the tears from last fall

After you left for another realm

In the dust bunnies under the bed

Hiding

Lingering to infest my lungs

My heart, my cells.

I cleaned on a steamy summer day

And found the sobs from the winter

In the cob webs

Pasted in every corner of the house

Waiting to entangle me in

Memories longing of your love.

I cleaned on a steamy summer day

And found my Spring loneliness in the stagnant air

Ready to explode in the stifling air pressure,

An accumulation of my hollering for you

And sighs over the lack of your answers.

Spring, minus rebirth but festering with grief.

I cleaned on a steamy summer day

And readied to leave the pain behind

And take the memories of love

To a freshening place.

I take the love, the joy, the deep knowledge of you

As I struggle to fine the new me.

The new me surrounding the essence of you.